Doubt

When they saw him they worshipped, but they doubted.

Matthew 28:16

Why did “doubted” jump out at me, even on a second and third reading of the final passage in Matthew, where Jesus’ disciples are commissioned to go out in to the world and spread the Good News? What is God revealing to me? I have a tremendous faith in God, the creator of all, who loves all in a way that I can’t fully comprehend, but certainly trust.

Perhaps, when I worry, become anxious, I am in a way doubting God’s will, God’s control. Perhaps, when I ruminate on situations that are truly out of my control, I am saying, “I got this one God, I doubt you can handle it.” Perhaps this passage teaches that “doubt” in whatever form it takes, worry, fear, anxiety, is part of our human nature. The disciples doubted Jesus, but he still had faith in them to spread his word. And despite our doubts, God is always with us, giving us everything we need.

God can handle our doubts, love us in spite of them, and guide us, ever so gently back to Trust.

Thank you, dear God, for creating me, blessing my life with goodness, filling me with peace and calm when I most need it. You turn my doubt to trust, my fear to faith, my anxiety to peace. I am never alone, you are always with me, for which I am so very grateful. Amen.